Thursday, April 25, 2013

My life as a teen novel.

It's weird, isn't it? How with one conversation you can feel instantly connected with someone you felt you had lost touch with? Or how with another person, one conversation can make you feel more distant than ever before?

I always read about things like this in the many teen romance type novels I've poured over throughout the years, but I never expected it to happen to me. I never thought that my life would be like the books in any way, even though I very much so wanted it to be. The fairytale romance has always gotten me. But this? I never thought would happen to me. The situation where the best friend betrays or upsets them in some way and they "grow apart". In some cases, this makes their relationship stronger than ever before. But in others, it tears their relationship into tiny litte pieces, too small to put back together.

For a while, I had been feeling... I guess you could say, neglected, by my best friend. I sat around waiting for him to make time to talk to me, call me, text me, anything. And it made me feel really lonely. I'm usually a pretty anti-social type person. I think it's probably classified as an Introvert. I'm the girl who would generally rather stay in and read a book or do things on my own. But, there are times when I get in this funk, where all I want to do is TALK to someone. And Clayton is the person that has been my go to for a long time. So, I made up excuses in my head. Reasons, to be mad at him. Because being mad at him was easier than missing him. And then one day, I realized how ridiculous I was being. I wanted to talk to him, so why didn't I just talk to him? And bam, with one conversation, over texting even, and I feel ten thousand times better about everything. I miss him a little less. I got over my fake anger towards him. And, I remembered that no matter how long between the times we talk or see each other or whatever, we understand each other in a way that can never fade or be forgotten. I remembered that Clayton is my forever friend, and nothing is going to change that.

I think, I put off being the one to talk to him because... what if? What if, for some reason, it wasn't like that? What if we didn't feel instantly connected again? What if we had changed too much to stay friends? Or one of us just wasn't feeling it anymore? It wouldn't be the first time that had happened... The possibilities of these things scared me.

But, in the end, it was worse not to know. So, I texted him.

Sometimes I forget just how great the people in my life are. And how much I need them around. But, I also forget that keeping people around takes effort on my part. Which, I'm RUBBISH at. I'm rubbish at staying in touch with people who aren't in my life every single day. Or at least on a regular basis. But, relationships take work, right?

Anyway, I hope you have a lovely day! Thanks for stopping by!

     Reille K.

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Not the girl I used to be.

I'm not quite sure when or where or how it happened. But, I'm not who I used to be.

I used to HATE hearing that someone had read my little bloggy here. I remember the first time someone told me they had read my blog, it was Marissa Liu, in College Writing at the beginning of my senior year. And I literally said, "Oh my gosh, don't do that." Even though she had just complimented me on it. I'm silly. I just feel uncomfortable when people compliment me, because I know there are so many other things out there that are better or what not, I guess? I don't think there's a specific REASON for my weirdness about it, but you know.

Even last fall, when bestie Lexis told me she had read my post about my decision not to go on a mission and how she thought I was super cool for it or... I think her exact words might have been, "I thought, Oh my gosh, this girl is amazing!" (don't quote me on that, though... It just sounds like something I would find uncomfortable, so you know, fitting.) I reacted in my usual fashion and was really weird about it. I don't think that deterred her from ever reading again. Obvi... since she still reads. {Hey girrrlll!}

My point is, I used to be SO weird about my blog. Like, I wanted page views, but I didn't want people to actually read it? My logic in this case was NOT sound. But these days, I've incorporated it into my everyday vocabulary and I talk about it. I even, oh my, this is big, on sunday someone in my ward asked me what my hobbies were and I SAID BLOGGING. I've never done that before. I didn't realize until pretty recently that this would be considered a hobby of mine. I think about blogging ALL the TIME. And I do it a lot. But, I told her that I like to blog and she said that she loves reading blogs and wanted to check mine out! AHH. You guys! Then I told her what it's called without being awkward about it! If that isn't progress, I don't know what is.

But, from this little encounter, I realized that my name is spelled weird... so... what if I tell someone about my blog and they don't know how to spell my name!? Would it be SUPER weird of me to make like... business cards for my blog? Or maybe I should order a STAMP. OH MY FLIPPING HECK. Okay. I just BARELY thought of this. I should TOTES get a stamp with my URL! My seester has one for her design-y business with her info and such and I thought it was uber snazzy. And I've been dying to figure out something I could get one for my self for. CHYES! Shut the front, I'm so dang excited now!

Anywho, somewhere along the way, I changed. I'm not the girl I used to be. I'm proud of my words and I like to share them. I never expected to be at this point. And I never thought it would feel so natural to me. I never thought I would be a "writer". Since, I consider myself a writer... In so many areas of my life, I'm not the girl I used to be. And... I think I like this new girl. Hmm...

I hope you all have a lovely week! Thanks for stopping by!

     Reille K.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Well... I wasn't expecting that!

Uhh, let's start with the most recent, shall we?

Once upon a time, I was driving home from church just barely aaaaand, I got pulled over. Ha! I was literally PANICKED (how do you even spell that?) out of my mind. I was at CHURCH so I didn't have my LICENSE. Oh. Em. Gee. Humans. But luckily the cop was so super nice about it and he let it slide this time and told me to slow down. Ohhhh my gosh. I drove like 15 mph the rest of the way home. Guys. I'm still kind of freaking out a bit. Oh my. I'm never speeding again!

In other news! Today was my first time teaching the lesson in Relief Society. And even though I FELT like I stumbled through pretty much the whole thing, everyone loved it! So, that's good. And it's over for another month.

And I had a chat with my home teacher, which was pretty great. Although, I can't help but think that if I hadn't, then I would have gone home right after church and NOT been pulled over. But, at least I didn't get a ticket for either of the awful things that I was doing (speeding and not having my license), so it's fine. I'm over it. Mostly.

I just, I feel incredibly lucky and blessed this week. It's been a crazy one, and definitely a roller coaster (what week isn't though, am I right?) but it's been GREAT too. I just can't even... AHHHH. I think I'll go sit in the shower now... try to calm myself. Especially because this week is going to be crazy too. Ughhhhuh. All the feels are happening!


Oh, p.s. my birthday is in ONE week.


Have a good Sunday! Don't speed and get pulled over like I did!

     Reille K.

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Put it into the world

"There was something really great about being able to put something out into the world-- a song, an introduction, even my voice-- and let people make of it what they wanted. I didn't have to worry about how I looked, or if the image of me people had fit who I really was."
                    -Annabel Greene
                     Just Listen by Sarah Dessen

I found this quote whilst re-reading (for literally, like, the twentieth time) one of my favorite books this past week. One thing that you probably don't know about me is that I LOOOVE quotes. If I find a passage from a book while I'm reading, I stop and write it down really quick and then add it to a book of all of them when I get the chance.

Anyway, this is how I feel about blogging. I put little pieces of myself out there for the world to get out of it what they get out of it, and I don't worry about the rest. I don't worry if I have horrible grammar, which I'm sure I do sometimes. I don't worry if I don't LOOK just right. I do it for me, and it feels great.

As I'm sure you already know, I got a new, scary calling last Sunday. And my feelings about it have been a roller-coaster all week long. At first, I was TERRIFIED. Then, I sat down and read my lesson, thinking I would only be reading it and taking a few notes on what I COULD do, and ended up planning the whole thing. I was super pumped for it at that point, since everything just kind of fell into place. But, of course, as the week has progressed, those feelings of doubt have slowly been creeping in and I'm getting nervous all over again. I think my brain has been trying to block out just how soon I'll have to do it and then every time I remember, I freak out again. Which has been SUPER fun, let me tell ya.

But when I saw this quote, and thought about how it applied to me, I realized that I could MAKE it apply to my calling too. It will be just like when I write more spiritual posts, which I've been known to do, but instead of hitting "Publish", I'll be saying it in front of the girls in my ward. And they can add in whatever they want to, and get out of it what they want to.

When I was in my home ward, I was the oldest of the young women for a while. So, in the face of that, I felt that I needed to be a really good example for the girls. I always spoke up in class and offered up answers to everything when no one else would. I was boss at that. But, since then, I've curled back into my shell a little bit, and I don't participate as much. I have stopped feeling like my answers are right, or good enough, or worth sharing. And, honestly, I HATE it. I hate myself for not speaking up. I think Heavenly Father got this message that I didn't even send and decided that this would help me fix it, along with giving me so many other things, as well as most likely blessing the women of my ward.

Even though I feel extremely unprepared, this is where I need to be right now. And, I think I've finally got things figured out; which doesn't happen very often for me. ;)

Have a lovely weekend!

     Reille K.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Higher Education and Such...

I just realized today that I don't think I've ever discussed "Higher Education" or, in other words, College on here. Or... University for those of you who are European and cool. ;)

You MAY have noticed, that I'm not in college. Umm, which, is the first and most glaring thing about my life at this point that I never expected. Starting in Jr. High, I started dreaming of college and where I would go, who I would meet, what I would study. I felt like that was where I would finally "discover myself" and be comfortable in my own skin. I was always a pretty studios little lass, and in some cases, most cases, I laugh at myself for it now. Like, I thought that I would go to Stanford. Which, is a really good school and not for the faint of heart. My little 9th grade brain was set on it.

And then I got to my senior year, and it was college day, and Clayton asked where I wanted to go. And... I had no clue! The only thing I knew was that I didn't want to go to BYU (sorry guys, I just don't understand the hype...). So, I just kind of... followed Clayton around to the presentation things that he wanted to go to. And we both liked USU. And we both ended up applying there. And we both got in. And I was rearing and ready to go for about a month before I realized that I was ultra poor and I wasn't getting any scholarships and I had no idea how to make things happen and I wasn't invested enough to figure it out (after like, January, of my senior year, I stopped caring about basically everything. It was a horrible case of senioritis.) So, I was like, ehh, I'll go to UVU and be with Chels and life will be great and fine. But then, after a few weeks of that too, I finally just realized that I didn't WANT to go to college right then. That I just wasn't feeling it. And I had only been making college a thing in my life because I wanted to stay with my best friends. I was doing all of that FOR THEM and not FOR ME. Which, is important. You have to start doing things FOR YOURSELF. That's a life lesson that I've learned since leaving high school.

So, I withdrew from the honors program that I had gotten into at UVU and went on my merry way. I did nothing, absolutely nothing, the first month after graduation. I was dealing with an awful bout of depression and couldn't seem to shake that. Then, I got the job at Target and started to figure myself out. And since then, I have still discovered myself, like I always thought I would at this stage in my life. And I've decided to become a Phlebotomist. And I might stop there, but I might go on to do more too. I don't know yet. And for the first time in my life, I'm not worried about that. Where I'm going to end up, what I'll be doing, who I'll be with. I'm finally okay on my own.

So, this applies to you as well. As I'm sure there are some of you who are contemplating college, or at college, or like me, not doing much other than working right now.

And how it applies is this, if you really just AREN'T feeling the whole college right after graduation, then take some time off! Figure things out! And don't feel bad when it gets to the end of the summer and everyone and their dog keeps asking where you're going to school and you say... "Uhh, actually I'm not... right now..."

If you ARE feeling the college right after high school vibe, cheers to you! I felt really burnt out after high school, so I wasn't in the mood for anything but the school of life at the time. But, if academia is your thang, then go! Be so excited to be there! It will be a good experience and you'll meet SO many new people that you'll like and so many people that you don't. If you aren't quite in those stages yet, I suggest figuring out early where you want to go, how you're going to pay, and all those super fun, super STRESSFUL logistics.

Now, don't confuse my lack of college attendance to mean that I don't support higher education and think that it's important. It is! But, there are a lot more options out there these days than the traditional college route. Which is great! I think if I had gone to college, I would have ended up not loving it as much as I thought I would. But, my five week Phlebotomy course? Perf. Short, sweet, gives me a career of sorts. Love it.

Anyway, I hope you all have a lovely night! Or day...

     Reille K.

Monday, April 15, 2013

To anyone who has ever and will ever read my blog...

This is for you!

I just want to say thank you to everyone. And I mean, EVERYONE. One of the things that this blog has done for me, is to show me that I have the support and love of so many people!

When I'm feeling a little uncomfortable with something that I have to do and I blog about it, such as my new calling, the response is usually IMMENSE. I think the fact that so many people believe in me is really going to help. 

And it's not just with this. There are so many other instances as well. I'm just feeling really grateful for everyone lately. It's easy to stay positive and keep doing what I do when I'm surrounded by such amazing people.

I'm just OVERWHELMED by how blessed I am right now, and I want to thank you guys for being on the receiving end of all this. I know I'm sometimes really whiny and awful, and for a while there, I feel like everything I said was negative. So thanks for sticking around even through that!


Much love!

     Reille K.

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Um, okay.

This weekend has been... just, weird, for me. I wrote this right after my meeting with a bishopric member and during some of sacrament meeting and if I'm remembering correctly, I was planning on posting it here... I had a headache that had lasted for days and days and I was in an emotionally fragile state, so I don't REALLY remember my intentions...

"Oh my GOSH, people. I could just die right now. This has been a weird weekend. First, my team lead asked me to be the new team trainer for Instocks on Saturday morning. He didn't want me to feel pressured or obligated or whatever, which I did, but because I feel obligated to do what people ask me to do in most cases. He said I could have the weekend to mull things over, and I took Saturday. I thought about it, I talked to my parents, I mentioned it to a few other people; and I just couldn't bear to say no. I know the other people on the team didn't really want to do it either, and obviously he wouldn't have asked me if he didn't think I could do it. So, I'm trying it out. If its REALLY horrible awful, and just not working, then we'll figure something else out. But, thus far, I feel like I'm going to get super OCD about it and go a little crazy.
And THEN, I got a message from a member of the bishopric yesterday saying that he wanted to meet with me. And if you're LDS, you know that a meeting with a bishopric member =  a calling. OYYYYY. So, we planned on noon thirty today, I rushed home from work and changed into a dress super quick then came to the church. They called me to be... *drum roll*... a Relief Society Instructor. You guys, I died. I'm dying. I'm dead. I don't know what just happened. I feel SO unprepared for all this, but that means that it's something that I need and I'm meant to do it. Remember how I felt like I just NEEDED to go to the Singles Ward? And I don't think I mentioned this, but once upon a time, the same bishopric member that extended the calling to me (Brother Davis) said that he felt that I was in the right place and that I was meant to be in the ward at that time. He said this in the middle of the "new member meeting" that my ward does and it really struck me. I obviously had to hide just HOW much it hit home, because I didn't want to be the weird new girl that cried in the new member meeting...ha! It was just what I needed to  extra confirm to me that I had made the right choice to go to the Singles Ward on top of the temple trip with Danielle and the smoothness of being released and such from Nursery. Well, I think this is my purpose. And even though it feels SO right, I still feel like a little baby guy and so not ready to teach the girls that are all older than me, and have gone on missions, and have had more life experience, and all that jazz. It freaks me out a little. Okay, it freaks me out a LOT. This is a way to put myself out there, which I haven't really done since like, Jr. High. The RS President seems to think that I have "awesome skills" and such when it comes to this, and she can't wait to see them in action. And my home teacher, who is just, so great at being my home teacher, asked if I was excited for my new calling and I told him that I felt weird and not old enough and unprepared and all those things. And he said, "You know, that's okay. Because you can take what you know, and then the Holy Ghost can fill in the blanks for you. And it will be great." That really helped. And my ward friend Kristy was literally, like, shouting for excitement when I told her, because she missed the sustaining bit, and she was like, "Ah, you'll do so good, I'm really excited! I can't wait!" And all those emotions. So, I mean, everyone is on my side. I just, you know, want them to get stuff out of the lessons... and I feel like it's a really important job, but it's also really scary for me. At least it's RS, and not Sunday School... I mean, it's all girls, so if I cry or something, they just get it. Not that it wouldn't be that way in Sunday School, but I personally would feel more comfortable with it. Ha, I have a weird thing about crying in front of people in general, but it's even more so when the male species is involved. It just, freaks me out. *SIIGGGHH* Relief Society Instructor. It's just... oy."

So, that's what I was feeling in the midst of all the madness. And a little bit after too... so like, all of church, basically.

I think the Bishop could tell I was freaking out a little and feeling not so prepared. And so did Brother Davis. And they were both like, no really, you'll do great. The girls will participate (which, they totally will, my ward is really great at that. So, WHEW.) and it's not JUST you teaching. The Spirit will help you. I just, it feels BIG. And big is scary.

During Sunday School, the girl teaching (her name is Cora, and I really love her lessons) said this in response to what someone said, " Don't let your questions overcome what you DO know. Don't let your doubts overcome what you DO know." I can't, for the life of me, remember what the person said, but I remember that. Even without writing it down all the way. It was PERFECT, it reminded me that I just have to tell them what I know, and that's enough. That's all I CAN do. And the Spirit will hopefully be with me and people can interpret it so it's what they need to hear.

I know I'll be fine, and I know it'll be great, and I'll eventually be super comfortable with it and stuff. But for now, I just need to freak out a little. And figure out how people know how long their lesson is going to be. Do you like, rehearse it all out? I don't even... I don't know. I guess I'll figure it out!

Well, I hope you all had a grand Sunday. And I hope this week is great for all of you lovelies, too!

     Reille K.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

all. at. once.

Suddenly, everyone wants me to be all the levels of responsible and junk! What is happening?

My Team Lead wants me to be the new Team Trainer... what?! I mean, I know the stuff, but I feel like I wouldn't be able to vocalize it and teach people in a way that makes sense to them. And also, I'm awkward. But, I haven't said yes or no yet... Ugh.

Also, a member of the bishopric wants to meet with me tomorrow before church. Yeah. You can bet I'll be getting a calling... I hope it's not something important and junk. Oh my gosh...

That's mostly it. I can be personally responsible and not get anxiety over it. But responsibilities where other people are involved? I want to die.


Have a lovely weekend all!

     Reille K.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Check out the NEW LOOK!

I've been feeling the urge to give my little blog here a face lift lately. For like, months. And I finally did it!

I drew my own header, and then edited it, because there were a few little gross bits.

And the color scheme is completely different! Yay!

And the background is different too! So, yay!

Now that I've finally tried it, I think I might change things up a bit more often. But, we'll see. :)

I hope you like it!

Have a lovely day!

     Reille K.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

GCW Spring 2013

That means, "General Conference Weekend", by the way. 

I love it. I love it even more when I don't have to work. Being able to focus entirely on the gospel for two straight days is GREEEAAAAT. And I enjoy that. I haven't been doing a Tidbit Tuesday for this week, because I got a little lazy. Sorry. So! I'll do a little one for the weekend. 


  • Enh, I'm over McDonald's breakfast.
  • I'm REAADDDY for conference. 
  • It's IMPOSSIBLE not to fall asleep at least once during conference. Seriously. Their voices are just so nice and soothing. 
  • So much sleeping happened today...
  • I should do laundry... I guess I'll make that happen.
  • Uhh, I'm a fatty today and ate two dinners... Yep, that happened.
  • Papa Johns Garlic Butter Sauce stuff is LIQUID GOLD. Not Velveeta. 
  • SNL, it's so great! I need to get into this. 
  • I also need to start watching Psych from the beginning. Seriously. I've been thinking about it for a couple weeks. Or more likely like a month... 
  • Ennnh, I'm just gonna go to bed. No shower for me tonight. 

  • Tradiiitttiooon! Sunday GCW Breakfast. COMMENCE! 
  • I'm READY for conference. 
  • Seriously, It's impossible to stay awake the whole time...
  • Lunch? :)
  • I guess I'll shower... since I feel disgusting right now. 
  • I should really fold my laundry... I'll do it during second session! PERF.
  • Ugh, it only took me less than one talk to fold three loads of laundry... I guess I'll just cuddle in a blanket and probably fall asleep. 
  • Ope, Pinterest it is! Kept me awake. 
  • 40 minute nap after the session ended. 
  • I realized this weekend that I've always regarded the Prophets and Apostles and General Authorities and such as Super Heroes a little bit. 
  • And then I decided to write this, because none of the blogs I follow posted this weekend so I was sad and stuff... And I needed something to do, OKAY. 
  • Also, it rained a time and a little this weekend, and I missed BOTH of them. Ugh. I hate it. Not the rain, but the missing it. 
Well, that's it for now...

K, bye!

Have a lovely week!

     Reille K. 

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Can't shake that feeling...

I feel almost as if I've let myself down. It seems silly, but there was a reason that I chose this to begin with; I had just forgotten what that reason was, I suppose. But I remember now... I can't shake the sinking feeling that I made a mistake. That I chose the wrong thing. It's hard because there's not really any way of knowing whether I did or not until it's much too late and time and energies and emotions have been wasted.
I saw something on Pinterest that reminded me of where I was when I made the initial decision.

I had forgotten that I didn't like the person I was. I had forgotten that I didn't appreciate how they spoke of others. I had forgotten that I have stopped judging people because that makes me happier and it's not something I even want around me. But I don't want to hurt them. I don't. But, is it worth potentially hurting myself to do that? Maybe I'm just too different. I could FEEL myself slipping back into my old, despised ways. Crawling back into the skin I thought I had shed for good. And I realized that it was just that easy. And that scares me.

Certain people can take you back to a time period of your past and with them, you're right back where you were. All your hard earned progress lost. All the pain, all the tears, all the grappling (is that how you spell that? Grapple-ing?) with yourself over who you truly wanted to be --for naught.

I gave it a second chance, didn't I? I made no promises, right?

I'm NOT saying that I regret the forgiving part. I'm just saying that I don't really... want to spend a slew of time with them? Like, we can totes go to lunch and catch up every once in a while but... I feel like the expectations are different for them than they are for me. I feel like we need to have an official meeting and discuss our expectations, but that sounds STUPID and really sad if that needs to happen.

I just, I don't even know.

Maybe I'm just weirded out by the situation?

Maybe I'll get my answer during Conference this weekend?

I DO know, however, that I'm not the same person. And if it works out, things won't be the same. I won't hide away how I feel and what I think just to spare their feelings or to keep them as a friend. I'm not scared of losing them anymore. So, that's not a problem.

I think I'll just get over myself for now, and let things pan out a little.

I think.

I feel like this shouldn't even be a big deal, but it is.

Maybe I'll make a pro/con list? (Oh my gosh, kill me, I'm laughing at myself about that. But, it would be helpful... wouldn't it? I mean, that's what they always do in movies and tv, so it HAS to work, right? HA!) (but seriously, would that be a good thing to try?)

It's definitely something to mull over. And it's hard, because it's not really a decision that anyone else can help me with. It's hard to summarize the relationship.

Anyway... I hope you all have a lovely day!

     Reille K.

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

A really fantastic day.

So, I wasn't necessarily looking forward to today.

I had plans to meet up with my used to be best friend who I hadn't talked to in six months to catch up and see if we could "try again". I sincerely expected it to be super awkward and awful and horrible. But, it wasn't. I never thought I would really have another conversation with her, but it was nice to talk and reconnect. It will most definitely NOT be the same. At all. But, it wasn't really the most healthy relationship (obviously, since it didn't last forever), so that's a great thing. So that was grand.

Then, I had been toying with the idea of going to the temple today in preparation for General Conference this weekend. First, I have never prepared for it. So, that was new. Second, I haven't really been feeling SUPER worthy to go to the temple for some reason lately. Not that I've been doing bad things, just not really enough of the good things? It's hard to explain. But, I guess that's a sign that I needed to go. Third, I have never gone by myself! That was a little intimidating, but, it was AMAZING. I absolutely loved going by myself. There was absolutely no conversations, which allowed me to fully give myself over to the Spirit. It was definitely worth it, and I'm glad I ended up going instead of being lazy and not. I think I might try going every Wednesday. Maybe. I haven't decided yet.

Also, I was GOING to go to Sonic yesterday, but it wasn't in the cards because it was all the levels of crazy and it was super busy, so I chucked the idea and just went home. But, I was driving past one on the way home from the temple and it was NOT busy! So I treated myself to an Oreo Blast. Yum-tastic.

Then, I checked the mail when I finally got home, and I discovered a letter from each of my favorite gingers(You're both my favorite. I just love you equally)! And they were so heart felt and I just loved it. It was a great way to end my afternoon, and I think the cards are just ADORABLE. I'm PREEEEEETTY sure they got together to do them. Just, pretty sure. Since, they're both CARDS rather than just a letter. Did that make sense? I'll show you.

See? Like, they wrote letters, but put them in a card. And the envelopes are the same size. I'm pretty sure they were together. Also, hey guys! Thanks for reading my blog Emma and Amanda. :)

It was just, a really unexpectedly great day. Just, wonderful.

Happy Wednesday!

I hope you all have a lovely day, too!

     Reille K.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Tidbit Tuesday #3

Aye, what a week already! 


-Took my grandma to get testing and surgery today for some skin cancer spots. We got there at 8 AM and didn't get home until like 4 PM. OH MY LANTA, GUYS. 

-It was such a long day. 

-I think my aunt is uncomfortable with how old I am because I'm responsible enough to take my grandma to have surgery and all the stuff that goes along with that. Which is fine, I'm uncomfortable with it myself sometimes. Maybe uncomfortable is the wrong word. I think it's just weird for her. 

-I just really love KFC mashed potatoes and gravy. Although, it gave me the odd sense of having a numb mouth because I ate them when I had my wisdom teeth out and had numb mouth. Gooood times. 

-Mountain Dew is the nectar of the gods. 


-I have the BEST coworkers. I really do. I was unsure of moving to Instocks at first, but now I know it was the best thing for me. I just, I love them. 

-We had a team lunch today and it was absolutely adorable and so great. I was SAD to leave work. Which, has never happened to me before. 

-I hate myself. I took a nap today and I MEANT to wake up at 3. Nope, woke up at 5. Ugh. 

-Uhh, the response to my "Lahve is Lahve" post is overwhelming. 58 so far people. WHOA. Love it or hate it, it was bold. 

-My parents said I should be careful what I put out there because future employers will probably look at it and it could make them not want to hire me. Well, if they don't want to hire me because of that, then I don't think I would have fit the job anyway. It's my opinion, it's part of who I am. I have never sugar coated anything in my life, for anyone. 

-I'm thankful for the right to free speech... but really. I think it's a pivotal and important right. Since... without it, I wouldn't be able to write this blog or really say much of anything of worth. 


-Target was ALL the levels of crazy today, and I felt like a chicken running around without a head.

-The above resulted in me wanting nothing to do with anyone when I got home. Sorry parents.

-It is a SIN to go to Sonic and not get tots. It's just... no. Get the tots.

-I miss my bestie a lot. And now he's all lovey and in a relationship and I'm really happy for him. But it's hard too, because it's from afar. :(

-I might get to see them (as in bestie and his boy) next week! I hope so! Or... this week, according to when this gets published.

-Ugh, I think I might have to start forcing, FORCING myself to go to ward activities. I just, I'm so awkward...


-Woorrrrrrrrkkuh. It was a madhouse at Target today, being the day before Easters. All the people wanted ALL the things and it was cray. 

-I impromptu-ly re-upholstered a chair today. Turned out GREAT. Shanks Momma!

-Also got a new chest type thing from my grandma. It looks GRAND in my room.

-Went back to Target late tonight and realized that I really miss the girls. :( But yay for Shyloh! Eeeeeeeeee! 

-And staying up late is not something that I can really do anymore either, by the way. It was ROUGH. 


-Happy Easters everybody! 

-Even going to bed at 1 AM, I still woke up at nine. So, cheers to having gotten my circadian rhythm in control! Cheers to Instocks! 

-Church was spectacular today. Just, spectacular. Of COURSE everything was about the Atonement, but it was like, extra amazing for some reason today. Definitely something I needed. 

-Uhhh... what? For reals, what the devil? Something completely unexpected and weird happened today, but I don't really know who to talk to about it or when I can talk to the people I do know to talk to about it. It's just a jumble-y mess up in my brain in regards to my issue. What to do, what to do?

-I'm also super distracted now, even though we're watching Lincoln, which I've only been waiting to watch since December 28th! Gahhh, killer. It's fine, I'll watch it later, we bought it for Easters. 

-We get a movie every year for Easter that has some semblance to Easter. Like, one year we got Eragon, because the dragon is born from an egg. That type of thing. This year we got Lincoln, because he also celebrated Easter. And there's also a big Easter egg hunt at the White House every year and he lived there once. We have really sound logic in my house. Always. 

-An old friend that I didn't really end things on the best of terms with contacted me today. And... we're talking again. Giving things another whirl. It will most definitely be different than last time, seeing as we're both different people and expect different things. It's going to be incredibly weird at first, but hopefully it becomes a bit more comfortable sometime. We're having lunch on Wednesday. Hmm.


-I was EXTRA crazy tired today. Which was weird. And horrid.

-I took a nap. Blech. I hate naps now. Mostly. ...I don't know how I feel about them. Ha!

-I'm ITCHING to paint my room. It's been in the idea machine for a long while, but I'm finally putting things into action a bit more. No worries, there will definitely be pictures when it finally happens.

-I also want to paint all my furniture. Eeeee!

-One of my arms is burning up... what is going on?


-Working until 2pm sucks. I know what you're all thinking, "uhh, no it doesn't". It does when you start at 6:30am and get done with all of your stuff at like, 11:30 and it's possible to get off at noon. It sucks, people. 

-What a day!

-I'm glad I have tomorrow off.

-I'm also glad I get paid soon. And that somehow my money comes in the day before payday. Cheers to direct deposit!

That's mostly it. 

Have a lovely week, humans!

     Reille K.