I'm baaaack!

It's a weird thing, this blogging business. I go through periods of time where I am like, "Holy buckets! I'm learning all these things and having all these great ideas and I want to blog ALL the time!" And other periods where I can't be bothered and I have absolutely NO interest in the blogosphere. I guess we can attribute that to my creative ebb and flow. Because, let's be honest, that's exactly what it is. And also, the stuff that happens to be going on in the life outside the internets. It affects my creativity and my writing and I get in grunky moods and I don't want this to ever be a place where I come to just vent and complain and hate on things. I think I'd like to save that for a different space.

But, as many or all of you have probably noticed, I have not blogged in MONTHS. I've been going through some hard and weird things lately and I was in the EBB part of the ebb and flow. With just about all of my creative outlets. But, I think I'm back and ready to party. Maybe. We'll see how it goes.

Anyway, I've really been trying to get out of my little bubble that I've created for myself, my little cozy nest, if you will. It's HARD. I hate it sometimes. Because it makes me just a little ball of anxiety and stress. I'm sure most people don't notice it, but holy buckets, I feel like a mess half the time. I've been attempting to actually hang out with people and do things rather than sit at home and waste away. It's going... alright. I realized this past Friday though, that since I was not a touchy person in high school, I didn't get a lot of practice and so I am literally the most awkward of awkwards when people, say, go in for a hug. Which is what alerted me to this issue that I have. I just... Social interaction is hard.

I've missed blogging. But at the same time, I loved the time that I had away from it to replenish and restore the bucket of creativity.

Anyway,
until next time...

Cheers,
     Reille K.

Music Chat.

Sorry I've been absent as of late, I really don't get on the computer very much anymore since I have an iPhone. But anyway, I thought of this really fantastic post while I was at a concert last night (okay, can I have a fangirl moment real quick? I posted a collage of pictures on Insta this morning from the concert and 2 of the 3 bands liked my picture and the lead singer from Motion City Soundtrack liked and commented on the picture. WHAAAAAATUH?! I had a tiny freakout when I saw it. Seriously. It was a really good show. Okay, fangirl moment done.).

So, I went to the Motion City Soundtrack, Relient K, and Driver Friendly concert in SLC yesterday with my seester, Meg. And we stood in line for an hour in the freezy weather and we were really excited to get in there and see the bands! Anyway, I noticed this kid and his friend walk past when we were waiting because I was intrigued by one of their jackets. I know, I'm kind of a weird one. Anyway, I just watched them walk past and didn't think anything of it. At 6 they opened the doors and we went inside. We hurried and bought a shirt before everything was sold out and went into the venue.

Remember jacket kid and friend? Yeah, they were standing right next to us the entire concert, basically. But jacket kid, who is actually really cute and I changed to chambray shirt kid later, was a really serious type. Like, borderline stoic. He didn't really have a lot of emotion to his face even when he was talking to his buddy. I was... we'll go with observing, him throughout the night, partially because he was just so darn attractive, and partially because I was so intrigued. Anyway, not a whole lot of emotion. And through the first bands set, he just respectfully listened and chilled. And then Relient K came on and he lit up. His face was shining with excitement and he was singing along to all the songs and he was getting really into it. And I thought back to all the concerts I've been to over the years and what I've observed there and what I've noticed just in everyday life. You can turn on a song and listen to an album and enjoy it with the company of other people. And it's great. But going to see a band live and feeding off their energy and the energy of the other people in the venue and really letting yourself go in that moment, is an experience like no other. It's incredible, even if you don't know that bands songs, or you don't know all the words, it's still so nice to stand there and feel the emotion in the lyrics and feel what they're feeling WITH them. Also, my favorite part of concerts, being able to sit there and enjoy the music while the sound from the speakers vibrates your hair! It's seriously one of my favorite feelings. I love it.

It amazes me how connected people are with music. It makes specific connections in the brain and it rewires. It wires itself to what you're getting visually and tactilely and what you're smelling so that when you smell that smell again, or see that thing again or touch what you touched, you are immediately taken back to that song. Or when you hear that song, you're immediately taken back to that feeling or sense. It's incredible!  And music can connect you with people you otherwise wouldn't have given a second glance. Because our music is so important to us. It speaks what your soul can't seem to put into words or feelings. And that's powerful.

Music is powerful. And it can change so much. It can bring people to life.

Have a great Sunday, guys! And a lovely week!

Cheers,
     Reille K.

Some little thoughts

-I have a tiny bit of PTSD from being pulled over last week. It was a little rough on the drive down to St. George.

-I have the best bestie for me. I really do. I found my OTP of besties. Clayton can make me laugh like no one else can, I think. And this weekend was fantastic. It's interesting, this whole friendship thing. When you meet people, you never know if they're going to be a "throw away" character in your story or if they could turn into a main character and be really important to the story line. I definitely didn't see this one coming when I met Clayton... that day I threatened to kill him. That's how all good relationships start out, right?

-Miss Jessica is my work OTP. I don't know how I survived a month without her there! I just work the best with her. I really do. And I appreciate her. Even when I call her my slave... :)

-You really can do anything you set your mind to. I've set my mind to not hate (not LIKE, just, not hate) someone and it's mostly working! Haha! It's really hard sometimes though.

-My Seester is coming to town on Wednesday! I'm so excited!

-I figured something out. Uhh, bubblegum and eggnog taste kind of like bananas. Which is probably why I hate those things. You probably disagree.

-I have a barely used graphing calculator. Like, a nice one. A TI-84 Plus. I used it for the one semester of Calculus I took in high school. I did have to scrub a sticker off... so it has some scrub marks. I have pictures if you're really interested... If anyone wants it, I'll give it to you for like $75. Which, is a shtealing deal, because I bought it for $125. I'll even put batteries in it for you. :)

-I had the best of times seeing my bestie this weekend. It was really really great.

-I need a book to read. I have a bookshelf full of books that I COULD read, but don't really want to at the moment. Except, maybe I will read some of them... either way, I'm open to suggestions right now. Hit me. (No Shakespeare, blechhhh.)

-I'm like a walking popsicle at work in the mornings. Then, in the afternoons, it's like I'm running a marathon through a sauna or something. It's ridiculous.

-I really need to stop being so dang lazy. "I hate myself everyday because of it!"

-I THINK I HAVE ALL OF MY CHRISTMAS PRESENTS FIGURED OUT. Mostly. Kind of. Except one, that's the hardest one every year!

I think that's all I have for you.

Have a good week, lovelies!

Cheers,
     Reille K.

"I'm like a little boy trapped in a woman's body."

That's how I ultimately described myself to my new visiting teacher this morning. So... that happened. Also, we saw at LEAST six people get pulled over during the course of our breakfast by the same two motorcycle cops. Which made me paranoid because I got pulled over by a motorcycle cop yesterday. On my way home from going home early because I was sick. Yesterday was probably one of my worse days. But hey! I didn't get a ticket, just a written citation. So, cheers to that! And then I drove down State from Lindon to Provo and I saw three more cops! It's like they all decided that this week they were ALL gonna meet their quota or whatever. It made me all the levels of paranoid.

Also, I'm really excited for this weekend. It's just what I need right now. To get away and not have to think about anything in Orem. It's been ROUGH this week already. And I still have two more days! So... there's that.

My brain has been a mess lately and I have been a crappy blogger, sorry about that. You'll probably live. Probably.

Anyway, I hope you guys are having a better week than this crazy.

Byeeeeeee!

Cheers,
     Reille K.

Randoms, probably.

I've been MEANING to write a really nice, really inspirational, really honest post about makeup for abouuuuut a month now and every time I try to sit down and make it happen, it doesn't. So, sorry and stuff. Therefore, you get some random junk stuff to tide you over until I feel like writing a big girl post. (because I know you are all DYING to read my blog every second of every day, am I right?)

-I joined the iPhone generation. I got the 5C in blue. I actually love it. Like, a lot. One thing though, I can't figure out how to get my phone out of the case... So... I'll have to work on that. I'm sure that I just need to be a bit more aggressive about it and since I don't have a different case right this second, that's why I'm not all that invested in getting that baby out, but still. Also, I looked at the case I have on their website (to see if they had any tips and tricks on getting those bad boys off, HA) and it turns out that it has shock absorbent rubber on the inside and really hard stuff (technical terms...) on the outside. So, I think it might withstand it if I dropped my phone... which hasn't happened yet, but it's a very big possibility.

- I've now watched both The Fellowship of the Ring and Two Towers. I don't hate them. I do however, think that the Elven land.... Rivendale? Is absolutely gorgeous and I really like the paddles on their boats. And I also think that Frodo and Sam are incredibly boring in Two Towers. And also, if I had to choose a creature to be, I would either be an Elf because their hair is so pretty or an Ent (probably an Ent wife...) because dude, I'm a walking, talking tree. So... it's pretty cool. That's most of what I've taken from the movies. Also, I'm still confused about a few things, nothing that REALLY matters to like the story line, but nonetheless. But, it's whatever. I'll get to... whatever the third one is... Return of the King? sometime or another. Then everyone at work can get off my back about it. Then I just have to watch all the Star Wars and they'll REALLY leave me alone. (Like THAT'S going to happen any time soon)

-I'm going to St. George next weekend to visit Clayton and Rob and I am SO SUPER EXCITED. Like, really. I'm the kind of person that makes a packing list for everything. And I've already written it out and revised it. Packing lists are serious business, people. And the second I confirmed the dates, I started making a playlist of the music I want to listen to on the drive. Like, I'm being SO dorky about this whole thing and I don't even care! I'm beyond excited! A little less so because my mom decided that she doesn't want me driving down by myself and she's going to my aunt's for the weekend. But, WHATEVER. I'm more just so stoked to go visit my bestie! And it's Albus and I's first road trip together! Yay!

-My rings. They are now too big for me on the fingers I was wearing them on. I'm most sad about my grandfather's class ring. It's too big for any of my fingers now and I am seriously crushed. I got a new ring to put in the spot that my other ring didn't fit on anymore and it's a Greek Evil Eye. I just think they're really cool, more than I actually believe in that stuff. It's interesting to see what people believe in that's different than what you believe in. And I think it's kind of cool to learn about it because then you can connect with them better.

-I'm steeling myself for the weeks ahead. Basically for the foreseeable future. I already know it's going to be very hard for me and I hope and pray that I can handle myself and not be a total... *ahem*. Hahahaaaaa, woops?

-I hardcore worked on my sisters commissioned mosaic ALL DAY yesterday and I'm really excited about the progress. Like, REALLY EXCITED. I'll be sure to Instagram the finished product, because blogger has been bugging out with pictures lately.

-Does anyone else have to have a clean room before they can go anywhere? Like, if you're going on a trip somewhere, do you make sure your room is clean before you leave? Because I do. So, that's what I'll be trying to tell myself to do everyday this week. And also trying to hold off on packing until AT LEAST Wednesday. Ha! Seriously, I love this stuff. I try so hard not to be an over packer too, by the way.

Well, I think that's all I've got. See you later, have a FANTASTIC week.

Cheers,
     Reille K.

Let's Chat for a Minute

I KNOW. I DIDN'T POST YESTERDAY. I was busy living my life, my apologies. But, I'm giving you a serious-town big girl blog post to make up for it!

I've been pondering this topic a lot lately, but, to fully understand where I'm coming from, I think we need to rewind back to when I met Rob (Rob is Clayton's fiancée, Clayton is my bestie). We were discussing how someone could go from being totally cool with someone close to them being Gay to not being cool with it at all. I remember making the comment, "I don't understand how people can be so malleable,". Clayton and Rob both liked that comment and blah blah blah, that part is all that pertains to this chat of ours here. And by chat, I mean, I'm typing at you.

They made that comment significant to me, and I have thought about it off and on since that night. I looked up the definition of malleable and found this:

Malleable:
adjective
1. capable of being extended or shaped by hammering or by pressure from rollers.
2. adaptable or tractable: the malleable mind of a child.

Synonyms: impressionable, moldable, flexible, pliable.

Okay, so we understand WHAT malleable means now, let's go back to that first comment, "I don't understand how people can be so malleable,". As I've thought about this, I've realized, I was wrong! DUH, people HAVE to be malleable. The people that AREN'T malleable are those ones that drive the people around them absolutely bonkers because they won't listen to what other people have to say, won't consider any opinion besides their own, or ALWAYS have to be correct. In other words, the worst kind of closed-mindedness. The rude kind.

We are all humans, right? So in turn, we are all malleable. We are changed by what we see, hear, feel, touch. We grow and learn and develop. We are all malleable! And, in realizing this, I've also realized that this can be for the good and also for the bad. We can be influenced by the good and great and wonderful and in turn become more good and great and wonderful; OR we can be influenced by the awful and evil and mean and become more awful and evil and mean. That's why it is so important that we pay attention to what we are letting influence us in the books we read, the people we surround ourselves with, the music we listen to, the movies we watch... basically, all the general INPUT that we receive, so we can in turn, have a desirable OUTPUT. Ya feel me?

I just want to challenge each of you to evaluate your input. Evaluate those things that are molding you even when you are unaware of it. Are those things that you feel are good and great and wonderful? Are those things that you want to carry with you for the rest of your life?

I hope everyone has a great week!

Cheers,
     Reille K.

5 things that make me probably the creepiest person.

Creepy? Or well-informed. I just creeped on someone and then realized that I am probably ultra creepy. I mean, I was creeping, after all. But, this isn't the first time I have felt like that, so I thought I would share some things that make me probably more creepy than average.

1. I remember details... Like, hardcore. To the point that people don't remember saying anything about something and I will mention it and they are all, "HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT?!" "Uhh, you told me..."

2. I Facebook stalk like nobody's business... All I need is someone's first name and the first three letters of their last name and I can and WILL find someone on Facebook and stalk the crap out of them. Give me half an hour and I will know A LOT about that person. And I obviously have no shame about my Facebook stalking tendencies/abilities.

3. I spend a lot of time observing people...  I find it fascinating to watch how people move and live and speak. So, I spend a lot of time SEEING people, and you catch on to a lot that way. You also overhear a lot of things that you wish you hadn't... and could have died happy not knowing. It's a blessing and a curse.

4. I know a lot of weird things... and sometimes the things that I know about creep those around me out. I know so much because if I've never heard of something, I go research it. For example, menstruation cups. DON'T GO LOOK THOSE UP. I made that mistake, and forever wish I were the kind of person that could have seen that phrase and just been like, oh, maybe it was a typo? And went on my merry way. But I'm not.

5. I really love Edgar Allan Poe... And that makes me creepy to people, I guess. I mean... I can kind of see it. But I think he's a genius.

Have a lovely weekend, everyone!

Cheers,
     Reille K.