and sometimes I get a little lonely...

It's really hard growing up. It's even harder when you have to do it alone{ish}. I mean, of course I've had my family around and all, but sometimes, a girl just needs her friends. I haven't seen them since... basically graduation. And it's been super tough. I feel really lame, a lot. Especially when I get on facebook and everyone is posting status' and pictures about them and their friends doing crazy fun things, going to peaks, or even just hanging out and watching movies/tv together. Sometimes I wish my friends were like that, but we aren't. And sometimes I wish they didn't live so far away, but they do. And sometimes, I really just want to be a crazy, silly, teenager... but I don't really have anyone to do it with, and that really sucks.

Don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I wouldn't trade them for the world. They have blessed my life in innumberable (is that even a word?) ways and I will be forever grateful to them. But, I've watched 5 1/2 seasons of The Office this week. THIS WEEK.

I just... I've never even been to SUMMERFEST, for cryin' out loud! Ever!

I guess I'm just feelin' super lame tonight.

And facebook is enough of a pity party without me adding to it.

And I had a bit more to say than a simple status.

And notes on facebook are lame.

Then again... I'm a little lame too.

Ugh.

Feel free to join in on my pity party!

It's not THAT bad...

I think I'm gonna go hang out at the cemetery now...

Don't judge.

"The Unicorn Club"

Cheers to a sliiiightly controversial/political post, if it's too blunt for you well... then don't read it.

Just to preface this post, I'll let you in on a little something... I'm LDS. Otherwise known as "Mormon", a nickname that we are commonly known as because we read {and believe in} the Book of Mormon. We believe in Eternal Families {yes, being with your family and loved ones even after you die!}, and we also believe that marriage, especially of the eternal sort, is between a man and a woman. Now, we believe in [AGENCY] too, and [REPENTANCE], both of which I personally feel are a big part of what I want to say today. {I'll try not to be preach-y.}

Once upon a time, a BIG current event right now is [[Gay Marriage]]. And everyone thinks its this huge deal and it's a slippery slope and blah blah blah. Well, here's my opinion: Let them be wed! It's their life and they can make whatever choices they want to make. And guess what? It's not MY place to judge them for their choices and actions and how they want to live their life, just like they shouldn't (and probably don't) judge me for how I choose to live my life. Now, this isn't to say that I disagree with my church, because on the opposite hand of my thinking it's okay for gays and lesbians to get married, I wouldn't want them to get married in the temple. It's totally different than what they really want from the marriage thing anyway. But really? Let them be able to visit each other in the hospital. It's really not THAT big of a deal to let them do that. And all those other legal things that is really all they mostly want from the whole "marriage" deal.

Anyway. Here is a blog post that I came across on Facebook, and it's pretty amazing. It's about a man who is homosexual and also happily married. To his WIFE. I had always wondered about this, whether it ever happened, how they did it, how the wife felt, etc. And their post gave me a little insight into it and is also just a really cute story. Here it is if you'd like to also read it and be COMPLETELY amazed by their story. I think it's adorable. :) (also where the whole "Unicorn Club" thing came from. I wasn't aware that this was a thing until I read it.)

I'm Christian Unless you're Gay is also a blog post about gays and Christianity... it was controversial enough that my humanities teacher had to get approval from the principal to have us read it as an assignment, and he was SUUUPER reluctant to let it happen. Personally, I love it. I think it's not just about gays and how we treat them, but about how we treat people who are simply DIFFERENT than we are.

The first of many endings. And super fun nights. And other things.

Yesterday was my last day of real High School. 
It was slightly depressing, just because it's the unofficial end of an era. 
After this weekend it's all senior activities and finals and things. 
You know, it's CRAZY.
And it's also, WEIRD. 




Ooh, another thing to talk about...
Last night.
My friends and I went to see "This means War". It was just as delightful as I expected it to be. We decided to go to Target and check out the remodel, which was also delightful. We walked all around the store and had a generally good time. We didn't know where to go next so we went for a cruise. We ended up at Lindon Park and we were GOING to hang out there for a bit, buuuut, as we were pulling up there was a super creepy homeless guy smoking and we drove away screaming a little bit. 


We then tried to find Discovery Park. We found it, buuuuut, it was super creepy at night too. The PG cemetery is on the way there and my friends thought it would be fun to walk through it at night. Weirdos. :) We found out that Jane was unbusy and decided to creep on her. We accidentally scared the crap out of her parents and drove away and such and went to Bonneville Park. [holy fetch, there are a lot of parks in this story.] Chels decided it would be hilarious to drive "out of sight" when Amanda and I were in the bathroom. Too bad for her she didn't drive far enough that we couldn't see her and we sneaked up on them and TOTALLY scared her. HA! It was one of the best moments of the night. :) We then went back to Jane's and picked her up... Hopefully her parents weren't too upset with us! 


Chelsea then drove us to Provo because there was something she wanted to show us. She wouldn't tell us WHAT it was. Or really WHERE it was. We then got kinda lost and witnessed the Police interrogating a super drunk guy. Like, too drunk to stand up. And we finally found it. A GIANT Christus Statue in someone's front yard. Chels tells us that it's generally lit up and even more weird. WOW. Also, in the entire amount of time we were in Provo, we saw 7 or 8 people pulled over. Woah. A lot of people were super unlucky or really stupid last night. 


All in all, it was a lot of fun. And a good change from our usual, sitting at someone's house and watching a movie. With the occasional hot tubbing. :)


GOOD TIMES. :)


Also, last day of Seminary on Thursday. It was super sad and we just had Testimony meeting. Which was absolutely amazing. Loooooved it! I totally cried. I started crying even before I got up there, LAME. But everyone said they super loved my testimony and such, which was nice to hear. I'm glad that my little testimony, my nugget of knowledge about the gospel, is inspiring to people. :D


Also, SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE STARTS ON THURSDAY! I CAN'T WAIT! AHHHHHHHHHH!


Also [last also. :)] Felice and Nate are coming. THIS WEEK! I'm super duper excited. Like, borderline crazy, excited. It will be grand! YAY! 


Okay, I'm done now. 


xoxo, 
    Reille K. :)

New Beginnings

     As I was in Seminary today, the fact that this is really the end set in. I lost it a little bit, and TOTALLY cried before I had even begun. We had testimony meeting, and I mostly cried because I felt the spirit, but a little bit because I'm sad that it's the end... anyway!
     I decided that it was time for a little freshening up of the blog as well. It's really similar, but I don't want EVERYTHING to change. :)
     Only about a week and a half until graduation. Yeeesh.

Just some wedding stuff that I generally enjoy.

Take a look at this!

That right there, is a wedding that has conifers in a classy way. I was initially intrigued  by the groom's lovely boutonniere. It has little sprigs of pine tree-ness in it and I thought that was absolutely cool!

My mom says that someday when I get married, I should get married in the winter. At Christmastime. BUT! I have never been fond of the "winter wonderland" nonsense and I don't want decorated Christmas trees at my wedding. Because that's lame. 

But that wedding up there, with that linkage... I would consider something like that. It's coniferous and classy.

Then again... I could do coniferous in the springtime... or the falltimes.... or the summertimes.

I guess my point is that I kindof want to include conifers in my wedding someday.

Here's another wedding this cool lady photographed that I really liked... It's a sunnyday wedding!
(Which is ironic, because her blog is called sunnydays photography... didn't even notice that until I already made that link)

Anyway, I really love the groom's tie. It's super bright yellow, and I like how intense it is. Since wedding colors and the like are generally a little more... low key. I like this brightness

I also like her bouquet. It's handmade, it looks like, and I quite enjoyed it.
My sister made hers, and it was pretty legit too. But this one... is different. I think they used scrapbooking paper, or something of that sort. Which is pretty cool.

At one point, I wanted to do origami lotus' for my bouquet... I think that's still a pretty rad idea.

I just realized how weird it is that I'm blogging about my not even near future at all wedding.
So I'll stop now.
k, bye!

xoxo,

       Reille K. 
                   :)

Oh, the future is near!

Let's start off with a little picture of sorts, yeah? 

And I'm SCARED TO DEATH. I don't want one of my best friends to move away to Logan. In a MONTH, basically. I don't want to NOT see all my friends. As much as I say I don't want to see all the people at school after we graduate, I'm still going to miss them. I feel like I'm barely getting to know them, and I doubt I'll see... any of them again, really. I used to say I wanted to grow up, I thought it would be easy. Well, it's not. I'm barely even growing up and I don't like it. Which brings me to...

Once upon a time, as I was falling asleep last night, this idea came into my head and it seemed like a really, kinda great idea. Here it is... "Don't go to college right away. Why should I? What is my motive for doing it right away?" Then I proceeded to weigh the pro's and con's of going in the fall and deferring for a semester or two. Pro's of deferring: MONEY (which gets like, five or six points towards pro's alone), I don't have to leave Minnesota early (which is kinda lame, but I really want to go to the Minnesota State Fair! And be with my sister on her birthday!), And I guess it's mostly the money thing. Cons: I was really only going because that's what society does after high school, I just don't have any money right now, and even working all summer, it won't be enough for even one semester. 

All in all, I think I made the right decision. 

My parents support my decision, so I think it's not too shabby of an idea. 

It's not like I'm never going to go to college. 

I WILL go to college. 

Why go into debt right out of high school when I don't really have to? 

I feel good about it. It's an EXTREME weight lifted off my shoulders. 

Once I get through my AP test next week, I think I'll be virtually stress free. Mostly. 

Now, I just have to decide if I want to stay in my home ward, and if I do, stay in Young Women's or go to Relief Society. OR go to Single's ward. A decision I have to make because I'm now 18. Which is probably what spurred me into my above decision. The fact that I am LEGALLY AN ADULT. Which is scary. 

I should go study for my AP test. Even though I don't really want to. But I HAVE to. 

So.

Goodnight!

xoxo, Reille K. 

I really just kind of love this picture. There is a whole story about Alot somewhere on the big old web, but I don't really want to go find it right now and I need to go study. But enjoy! He's so cute! 

Directioners, Morp, and Gratitude. (and congratulatory remarks and books)

I don't mean to disrespect. At all. But I just have one word to say. DIRECTIONERS.


You can like One Direction without having to be a so-called "Directioner". You can like them for their music and not their attractiveness, personalities, et cetera. Just because someone isn't totally obsessed with them, doesn't mean they can't enjoy their music, which is their main purpose in the first place. I mean honestly, people. Don't be hatin' and pretentious because someone doesn't know how to pronounce "Louis" correctly. I mean, I'm a pretty pretentious person and it bugs me when people freak out because of that. Then again, I'm really trying to work on it. 


I have NOTHING against Directioners, as I am one myself. But it really annoys me when people are super... hipster... about boy bands and stuff. It's like, really? They WANT to have a billion screaming fans, that's why they got into this business. So don't freak out because other people like them. Just take a chill pill. Relax. It's JUST a band. Think of it this way, you now have something in common with these people. A conversation topic. You just may surprise yourself if you give them a chance. They could be a future best friend. I mean really, my first conversation with one of my best friends started with me saying, "Don't you dare give me swine flu, or I'll blame you for the rest of your life and mine." And in that conversation he determined that I was gangster because I went to Orem Jr. and so on and so forth. The point is, I can't imagine my life without him now. 


Also, I once upon a time mentioned asking this attractive boy to Morp, found out today that he has already been asked. Blast-Ended Skrewt. I guess it's on to Plan B! Or rather... Plan C, since the boy I'm now asking's name starts with a C. Heh. Yeah, the joke was super lame. Don't worry, I know.


OH! And, once upon a time, well, my last post upon a time, I noticed that more people are starting to read my blog AFTER I wrote a post that I didn't expect to ever be read. HA! That was a silly mistake. But, I kept it really vague, so I guess it's not a big deal. But anyway, my point of this paragraph is THANKS. Thanks for reading my blog and making me feel like an interesting person. Thanks for silently motivating me to be a better blogger. And most of all, thanks for taking time out of your busy life to listen... read my ramblings about the things that I care about. :) I hope all of you have a FANTASTIC day. 




xoxo, Reille K. :)


P.S. My really good friend, well, I guess the better term would probably be one of my best friends from childhood that I still try to make the effort to sometimes stay in contact with.... anyway, he's the Student Body President at Mountain View next year! And I am super proud of him! I know he'll more than likely never see this, but still. I'm really happy for him, and you should be too. :)


P.P.S. My old seminary teacher wrote a book. I have yet to read it quite yet, but I'm still going to guarantee that it's going to be amazing. It's called... "Bring the World His Truth" by: Matthew B. Christiansen. You can get it at Seagull Book and it's brown and has a globe on the cover with gold letters. For reals, I can't wait to go buy it. I just have to get some moolah first. And he said he would sign mine and I'm really really excited. Really. Once I get around to the purchasing and reading of the book, I'll let you know how much I ended up liking it. :)


P.P.P.S. I'm reading this book called "Divergent" by Veronica Roth and I absolutely love it. I started it... yesterday? and I'm already almost done with the book. I don't have to wait TOO long for the next book, since I believe it comes out at the beginning of May, but even just those few weeks... or days, I guess. They will be torturous. :)